New Chapter

Today marks the transition towards a new chapterof my life. yesterday was my last day at Pacific World Singapore....after 2mths, I finally decided that the place is not the right fit for me. Yet I was pleasingly surprised that the colleagues actually arranged a farewell lunch for me.

Here's thanks to Jessica, Jennifer, Angeline, Jacqueline, Melody, Lynn, Anothony and Rayner.

From today...I need to find my positive self again. I know deep inside, I'm somewhere there yet I dun show up day-to-day. I'm not putting myself under pressure...after-all, it's only been 4mths since my family and my life changed forever. Takes a while I guess...

Feels empty that Eve has to be home alot to instill responsibility into her young siblings. damn.

Yes a new chapter...and I gotta get my mental correct.

                            

SINCE Sept 2006!! ( Feb - May )

Feb 2007

-Celebrated my birthday with my family and Eveline. My younger sister got me a shirt....she said "Becoz u r working so u may need it". It's nice, Ah Girl...thanks! Eve got me a Mont Blanc pen and she hid it somewhere...haha! No sweat as I looked for it. Gosh...must have wiped out her savings.

Mar 2007 - May 2007

- I wonder by now how much bonus I would get for ploughing those shit at MF. 5 months will be enticing! A 5-figure cheque will be good for my family...probably give some to my sister...some to my parents...and the rest to build a business.

-Tension began to build tremendously as I witness my parents attempt all means to ensure my sister doesnt behave silly in her life. My sister...oh so stubborn...turned rebel.

- I wish I can do something...I was just too tired physically and mentally. I could only msn my sister and hint at her. She was not responding...much.

- The June Wedding couple was in a total confusion as there was suddenly another client who die-die also must have the same venue. Pris and I worked hard to protect the integrity of the team. ML worked hard to destroy it.

- Pris left MF. All the politics finally got to her. Events Teams suddenly was in turmoil...again. I really dunno how much more energy I have for this.

-Roy decided to leave but he was beaten to the mark by Si Ni, who left within a week since she was on probation. Now it's just PJ, me and Marvvy "gay" boy. The new guy Chris came on...but he had too MUCH to learn in too SHORT a time.

- ML is REMOVED from his GM duties...I couldn't even bother turning up for work on his last day. He's simply not worth my time.

June 2007

-June Wedding finally got back into track...Thank all the holy entities in the world! Otherwise my friend, Caroline, will never forgive me.

- Bonus was announced and I would get my bonus in end June. I was only gonna get 2 months. Many others were gonna get more. I am by now 99% determined to leave. For all the hard work...I'm getting less than what others will get. How justified.

- On 12th June, I was at the peak of my unhappiness as the Operations colleague refused to be responsible for operations in the Ballroom. "One of you must stay and look after your client's stuff until we finish our lighting installations". What appalling nonsense.

- 13th June...I woke at 7am and got to work early...with tonnes of tension at home and at work. I was ready to vent my anger at anyone. Things went well in the morning at work...

- 13th June (7.20am) I receoved a call from home...my mum's deep serious voice was really frightening. She said " Come home now...your sister...bleeding...sent to hospital...." That's all I caught in that quick 30s conversation. Thank god for Roy and Chris, I left the event to them and I rushed home immediately.

-13th June...My sister never woke up...I didn't know how to react or what to think. My dearest sister never woke up.

-14th June( 7.19am) After fighting for 24hrs, my family witnessed the passing of my younger sister at the age of 22. Barely a week after her birthday. Ah girl..you know your kor always loves you and I'm sorry...deeply sorry for not being there for you. You will always be in our hearts.

SINCE Sept 2006!! ( Sep - Jan )

Yes, I know. By the time you see this entry you would have this statement in your mind: That's 1 fucking year ago!

Truth is...I know.

Here's an update in summary on what has happened since then..it may take a while for me to complete typing all in so stay entertained! i suppose I'll keep it short by keying in the main events.

Sept 2006

- My immediate boss Mr Verghese left Mount Faber, throwing the entire Events Team into disarray. ML has won! E.T lost badly!!

- life must go on...I continue to work through the shit. PJ also stood by me...

- Suddenly, Jewel Box Events Team was all about Kelvin Chan. New enquiry - kelvin, Client is here to view the place - Kelvin, Client needs a proposal by today - KELVIN, Event having some cockups - KELVIN!, Client has yet to pay up - KELVIN!!

Oct 2006

- News spread that we are gonna employ more staff and have a new Events Team HOD. Everyone thought it was gonna be me.

- I knew better.

Nov 2006

- A few personnels were employed. ML took over Events Team for the moment and all of us had to suck up all his shit again. Direct shit this time.

- No real personnel were put to the HOD post. ML employed them...and removed them in a jiffy. What an asshole.

Dec 2006

- Work is really at it very peak by now. My table is FLOODED with files and proposals, menus, contracts, enquiries...simply too much.

- I really don't know which to attend to first. I just attend to the next urgent one since EVERYONE is urgent.

- Naturally there was some service failure...some damn client got on my nerves and I let them have it.

- There's one set of Indian Wedding couple who tried to make my life super difficult by not paying on the night of the wedding. The groom said to me "I dunno if u will still be employed the next month...but I'll pay once I speak with ur boss". guess what asshole...I continued to be employed.

- Priscilla was finally installed as HOD. Things start to get into order..

- I start to build my determination to leave Jewel Box.

Jan 2007

- I start to realise how much this entry is about my work. Yes indeed..at this point in Jan 2007, I realise I have not been present mentally at home. My younger sister is in trouble and she probably will need my presence as brother.

- Verghese came to me with a job offer...I applied immediately. Anywhere now is BETTER than here!!

- Hope renews...maybe...just maybe I am on the right track to stabilising my work life and family time. Sis...wait for me.

Job Openings

I'm doing this as a favour to the following groups of people:

  1. People who NEEDS a job
  2. People who NEEDS employees
  3. People who NEEDS business partners
  4. People who NEEDS to be business partners

Email me: MetaMilton@yahoo.com / Msn me: Lifeofck@hotmail.com / Call me: SEE "Msn me"

And I meant it when I say "favour". Hey, it's a bucket of beer at Balaclava dudes!! haha! okay...anywayz...here it goes:

People who NEEDS a job :

If you are keen to be in the crazy world of events,you are meticulous, work well under pressure, good with numbers, people and administrative matters...then you will be fitting to the job of Events Coordinator. You will be working closely with Events Executives ( who are a great bunch of interesting people! ) and vendors, clients in a dynamic environment towards fulfilling events. 5-day week.

This satisfies the people from Group 2.

People who NEEDS to be business Partners:

Are you gutsy? Do you have the never-dying desire and passion for business? Are you a team-player? Commitment will be the key. If you are all that, ask yourself if you are keen in which type of businesss, B2B or B2C ? Also ask yourself if money is the most important in your passion for business.

This satisfies people from Group 3.

Let there be love

Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?   Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?

Let there be love

I hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly stream                            Suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our dreams             

Let there be love

Come on baby blue  Shake up your tired eyes  The world is waiting for you

May all your dreaming fill the empty sky 

But if it makes you happy Keep on clapping   Just remember I'll be by your side   And if you only go, it's gonna pass you by

Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?  Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?           

Let there be love

                                                         --Oasis--

Sometimes things happen and the only thing that's left are memories. Yeap..in this modern age, sometimes even digital images are washed away with the tide of time. I wonder if people do dig out pictures and walk down memory village with those pictures? If ever they do dig them out...do they fancy them to put it up, or just leave them there. I guess the question is, do they appreciate?

I see morons...

It's been a crazy few weeks. People who experienced events know what I'm crapping about. I cursed my lungs out, I burst my head in and I smiled my teeth up. More to come I'm sure! I'm just sucking it all in, baby!

Current score card -- Moron vs E.T ( 1-1 ).

Yeah man...You can sit there in your comfy chair and theorize every single damn thing about others..and make other feel they're worthless...but there's ONE thing you can't do.

You can't bully us. And I will still stand up against you even if my legs are crippled.

Current favourite joke in mp3:

" I see Morons. They're everywhere....they just don't know they're Morons "

  Bruce_willis1

Place in this world

I been reading up on the world's reaction after Steve Irvin's death. Most respected what he does for animals..and there are a minority who disagrees with his style.

For those who has unkind things to say about him, I spit in your face because you don't have the guts to say it when he was alive. I sniff in my muscus and double spit in your face once more because you have to ride on his "wave" of mourning to bring yourself to everyone's attention. You have to depend on a dead man, don't you? Spit on you!

Everyone know Steve's place in this world...and their hearts.

This brings me to wonder...what's MY place in this world...and in my friend's heart?

What would be the impact ( if any ) to people around me when I'm gone?

I often tell some friends to msg me sometime...call me sometime. If you don't do that and if you don't hear from me for a while, it means I'm consumed somewhere. It could also mean something has happened to me ( or my phone ).

Thanks Dawn...I'm still alive. I'm still fighting. I know you are here, my dear friend. I know you are here. Meet up soon ya! Altivo?? 

Having said that...I still don't know what's my place in the heart of YOU, YOU, YOU and YOU.

Tell me...somehow in your very own unique way. If I'm worth anything. Let me know.

To end off, I've got 2 words for one man whom many have known to be a simply empty horny vase. These 2 words says alot about YOUR place in my heart. NO hokkien vulagrities can compare with the tenacity and intensity of these 2 words.

                                                   FUCK YOU.

Steve Irvin, Goodbye forever.

Steve_alligator250 Australia is preparing to say a final farewell to "Crocodile Hunter" Steve Irwin, as his family put the final touches to a public memorial billed as a celebration of his life.

More than 5,000 mourners, led by Prime Minister John Howard, were due to gather at Irwin's family zoo here for the tribute to the ebullient television conservationist who was killed in a freak stingray attack on September 4.

Up to 300 million more fans were expected to tune into the ceremony to be broadcast on live television around the world, in an indication of the popularity of one of Australia's most famous sons, Irwin's manager said.

But one seat in the "Crocoseum" arena, where the 44-year-old Irwin once performed death-defying stunts with large reptiles, will remain empty during the service featuring tributes from loved ones and dignitaries.

It's poignantly reserved for Irwin himself.

"There will be one seat alongside of the family for Steve because he loved the Crocoseum, he built it," said John Stainton, Irwin's longtime friend and manager, and producer of the "Crocodile Hunter" television show that made the tousle-haired Aussie world-famous.

"And his Australia Zoo cap that he always wore watching all the shows with his daughter will be on the seat," Stainton told reporters as he revealed a few select details of the memorial set to begin at 9:00 am (2300 GMT Tuesday).

It was however uncertain whether Irwin's American widow Terri, his eight-year-old daughter Bindi or his father Bob would be strong enough to speak at the much-heralded service as had initially been initially planned.

"Everyone has said they could do something, but I think on the day when it sort of starts and rolls out the family may have a problem with it because there are emotions there that they haven't seen for a while," Stainton said.

The event will be broadcast live on television in Australia and around the world and comes more than two weeks after Irwin's freak death while filming a new documentary on the world's deadliest sea creatures.

Stainton was Tuesday putting finishing touches to a video tribute to the man he worked with for nearly two decades that will include film clips and "funny moments" from Irwin's television career.

"It is sad and I think anybody that sees it is going to find it (hard)," said Stainton, who was out with Irwin when he was stabbed in the chest by a stingray's tail barb, snorkelling on Australia's Great Barrier Reef.

"I've tried to lift it and have highlights and funny moments in it, but it's really sad when you see him."

Irwin's sudden death sparked an extraordinary national outpouring of grief in his home country, where not everyone was proud of the larger-than-life TV star.

While he was put to rest at his Australia Zoo at a private ceremony on September 9, the clamour for a public memorial service was so great that Irwin's shattered family organised Wednesday's event.

Around 3,000 tickets reserved for the public were snapped up within minutes of going on offer last week, and thousands more fans will watch the service on large screens set up in five venues across northeastern Queensland state.

Flags on Sydney's famed Harbour Bridge were lowered to half-mast Tuesday in a sombre bow to the iconic Irwin whose family refused a state funeral saying he was "just an ordinary bloke".

Celebrities including Oscar-winning Aussie actor Russell Crowe were also expected to deliver pre-recorded eulogies to Irwin, while musician John Williamson was to perform the khaki-clad wildlife daredevil's favourite song.

Stainton said the popular outpouring of sadness was a testament to man who was the same in private as in public.

"Behind the scenes ... he was an incredible human being," Stainton said.

You don't know me

When I was younger, I used to be misunderstood alot. Not many can fully know what's going on in my mind. Few can know who the hell I trully am. Even fewer can appreciate what I am even if they think they know who I am. When I say few...I mean F.E.W. Those FEW...I think you know who you are.

And I thank you from the very depth of my heart because you take time and patience to listen and to know who I truly am. Just for you all, I will go through the deepest part of hell and back...UNCONDITIONALLY.

Do I make any fucking sense? Good if you do, screw it if you don't.

If you think you know me and think you can judge me, beware! Because I'll surprise you. Never NEVER under-estimate an Aquarius. I'm alot more than what you think I am.

Bottomline is: If you don't know me, You'll NEVER fully see what I can do.

Low Maturity, Low Intelligence

Just to complete the above title...

LOW maturity, LOW intelligence = Things that comes out from the mouth becomes something of very very tasteless and low class.

World is very small...but it takes people with absolute maturity and respect to keep their opinions to themselves. Simply put, SPEAK when you are spoken to. SUGGEST when your opinions are required.

If you find yourself outside of this definition...then I must congratulate you.

YOU are on the way becoming a resident kaypoh, aunty + uncles in the neighbourhood coffeeshop who thinks nothing the whole day but to spread rumours and talk behind people's back. Yes, I mentioned "uncles"...GUYS can be bitches too! oh trust me...I've seen them in my time in SIM. One look at them and you know they are destined...DESTINED to be the world's number 1 He-Bitch.

Hey...you might say that girls bitch too right? Newflash! It's normal for them to do so. It's in their blood. Of coz in my opinion, those gals with class will be tactful whilst bitching.

But He-Bitches??!!!

Suddenly memories of some He-Bitches I've come across back then flows in...ooohh I despise them. So I've got 2 words for these Bitches or He-Bitches...

                                               FUCK OFF!!!